My Life.

Right now at this very second kinda sorta really sucks.
Every thing is just a bunch of bullshit and I can't stand things.
I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know who to call friend or who to talk to.
I feel like i've just completely .. I don't even know how to describe it.
I don't even like who I am anymore. I don't like where anything is going. It's fucking beyond difficult to find anything to be happy about anymore.
I don't want to go anywhere I don't really want to start anything new because I know everything fucking ends. Everything turns to shit. Everybody fucking leaves.
That's why i'm not fucking moving on. Everything ends fucking terribly. that's why I refuse to do anything. Meet anybody new, anything. EVERYTHING FUCKING ENDS DISGUSTINGLY THEN I BECOME AN EVEN MORE DILUTED PERSON OF WHO I WAS.

I FUCKING HATE NOT KNOWING THE HELL I AM. DO YOU KNOW HOW HORRIBLE THIS IS? I CAN'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING.
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!