Career suicide is not real suicide.

That was seriously the worst nightmare i've ever had. Never has a nightmare left me incapable of doing anything for hours. I woke up from it and then a few minutes later my mom walked into the house because she went to the store for something and I just jumped up, ran over to her and hugged her and start sobbing. I haven't been able to sleep because it's still kinda bugging me. I don't even know if I want to talk about it. I've only written exactly what happened in my journal. There's only one other person I know that I would tell what happened to and that's.. Well if you've read my blog up till this point you know exactly who that person is.

The boy who became a man.

This year is going to be so much fun. Possibly going to Florida in December, i'm actually happy now, getting my hedgehog, i'm actually gaining friends for once. My music is going to go somewhere. Everything is progressively looking up. So, It's Jan 9th so it's now time for resolutions, now that i've had time to think about them all. 1. Help at least one person achieve true happiness 2. Pass and make it to senior year at CATA 3. Try not to lose anymore best friends 4. Make more friends 5. Get help around October and November if it gets bad again. 6. Try not to waste anymore days doing nothing 7. Go outside more 8. Be more social 9. Post more of my personal thoughts. 10. Learn to trust everyone again 11. I'm going to get a job, it's time. I tried as hard as I could last year to not get one because I wanted to be a kid as long as I could but now it's just delaying the inevitable. and the last one I can think of, 12. I'm going to find a brilliant lady this year. I'm not going to rush it, or take it too slow. It's going to be brilliant. Maybe i've already met her, who knows. She's there though, I will find her this year.