Today was a really bad day, as was yesterday.
Saturday morning (I say morning because I fell asleep pretty late) I had a terrible nightmare about Paige leaving me, and when I woke up at 2 I was extremely freaked out thinking it was real, so I laid in bed for 2 hours before I calmed down just a little to try and talk to her.
I finally did and everything was okay, but the damn dream still bothered me.
I didn't get to talk to her all too much that day which was okay because I understood she needed rest but I still felt bad.
Which leads today which wasn't really the best either. The dream was still bugging me. And for some reason as I was talking to her I just started to get really scared about everything.
It stayed like that till out of nowhere sometime at 8pm something in my mind switched and I felt a lot better.
I kept apologizing to her all day because I'm really sorry I make her go through my craziness like that. She shouldn't have to go through that. I shouldn't be this way.
What's wrong with me?
If I think hard enough can I figure out what's wrong with me?
Can anybody find out why?
Self inflicted? Beyond my control?
Fuck, who knows.
What ever it is, I apologize to anyone who has to out up with it.
I seriously do wonder how my friends put up with me sometimes. In my head I'm extremely annoying and arrogant and just plain stupid.
Plus you never know what mood I'll be in.
How can anyone like me?
Just don't get it to be honest.
Saturday morning (I say morning because I fell asleep pretty late) I had a terrible nightmare about Paige leaving me, and when I woke up at 2 I was extremely freaked out thinking it was real, so I laid in bed for 2 hours before I calmed down just a little to try and talk to her.
I finally did and everything was okay, but the damn dream still bothered me.
I didn't get to talk to her all too much that day which was okay because I understood she needed rest but I still felt bad.
Which leads today which wasn't really the best either. The dream was still bugging me. And for some reason as I was talking to her I just started to get really scared about everything.
It stayed like that till out of nowhere sometime at 8pm something in my mind switched and I felt a lot better.
I kept apologizing to her all day because I'm really sorry I make her go through my craziness like that. She shouldn't have to go through that. I shouldn't be this way.
What's wrong with me?
If I think hard enough can I figure out what's wrong with me?
Can anybody find out why?
Self inflicted? Beyond my control?
Fuck, who knows.
What ever it is, I apologize to anyone who has to out up with it.
I seriously do wonder how my friends put up with me sometimes. In my head I'm extremely annoying and arrogant and just plain stupid.
Plus you never know what mood I'll be in.
How can anyone like me?
Just don't get it to be honest.
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