Redemption purify.

It has been a while since I haven't been confused about my feelings with someone and it's been a while since no one has had confused feelings about me. I enjoy having this clean finish to the year. Sure, it's a little saddening not liking anyone and not having anyone like me but it's kinda nice. I haven't been in the mood for any relationships or any feelings of love and that in a while, i've been too busy trying to keep myself happy and doing my school work. The last person I had confused feelings about is now finally going towards someone really nice, which makes me quite happy. The last person that had confused feelings about me is now probably angry at me and probably avoiding speaking to me, which is okay. I understand, I wasn't a very good boyfriend. Getting close to me during the early winter months is a huge no-no. And well, we didn't have a whole lot in common. So yes, i'm back to square one of being alone. I really want to date someone that's 18, though. I want someone that has the freedom to leave when they want to come see me. I noticed that with Paige one of the greatest things about the relationship was that she was so close and able to come get me, a lot. I need a lot in common, and for the person to be able to see me a lot. Again, someone 18 and over would be nice. Too bad that won't happen. Well, I am off to bed. It feels good to be able to write for myself. The words that come out are much more genuine. Now i'm off.