You're living in a fantasy, that's how you cope.

Used up way too much brain power this week. I woke up on friday morning hoping that today wouldn't require too much thinking. Walked into guitar and turns out I had to do this one playing test that I did not know was that day so I wasted all the available brain power and more that I had left and nearly started to cry right there. I then had to do another play test that I could do in my sleep but my partner I had in it was complete shit so i'm fairly certain I got a shit grade on something I seriously could do in my sleep. The only nice part of the rest of that day was when I told my social studies/advisory teacher what happened and he told me a nice story then told me to take a guitar and just play whatever the hell came to me for 30 minutes. Of course my study hall teacher only gave me 15 minutes to just go play but it's okay. I then did a poster which took the rest of the time. Still ended up feeling like shit that whole day, and then the next day still felt about the same. And now today I woke up at 3pm and again, still the same. I wish it was way later than 6 because I really just want to hurry and go to school already. Can't stand being up in the dark for very long. I really need to get out this winter. I'm gonna make this winter awesome.